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Chasing Love or chasing what you love?

I call myself a nomad; a wanderer, I am mostly living in my imaginary world, the outside events just keep happening around me, and I most often tend to get succumb to those,  I feel such experiences over powers me into becoming this peculiar personality who is lost in her own world; aloof and not surrounded by the crowd. But when I sit with myself and ask what is that I truly desire, the only answer that follows is love! In search of which I’m running around like a maniac. But what kind of love and why love ? The basis of such un heard of mind-set develops since childhood and then it grows with external experiences, however the internal chemistry remains essentially unchanged no matter what happens around you. Life is always going to be unpredictable and challenging, what makes you, YOU! Shouldn’t change, one can evolve and learn but your core remains unaffected. Every time I end up chasing it I question myself why? You don’t need to run after it, it’s within you. It’s ...
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Survival: a dilemma

Once you attain adulthood, you tend to easily become accustomed to stress and drama in your life. You understand that your life can be as simple or as difficult as you want to make it. It’s your choices after all which makes you who you are currently and what will you become in future We go through life and we realize that life is not predictable it is an intricate art of finding balance between reality and emotions. At one point you exactly know what you want and then once you pass through it you realize oh no that was a big mistake! Why did I choose that in first place? While writing this I’m incessantly probing myself: what is it that I really need for my survival? First things first to talk about survival you need to let your basics covered that is food clothes and shelter! Money is everything that you need, let’s get this straight, it’s very important to understand the value of money and the time you invest on making it, these to me are survival tools, and health goe...

Abundance is all around and within us

There's a famous saying 'when you are already drenched, there is no way some outside power can further soak you.' Why did I start with such a wet thought on my mind?? Well this life is a constant struggle, within and without! Ever since you become an adult you are bombarded with relationships to maintain, societal norms to cater, faith, job, emotions and blah blah blah. The entire scenario is full of drama and act. It is my full conviction and very vehemently I would like to mention here that we all have a role to play here in this world. Just like how very notoriously, Shakespeare the ultimate philosopher (yes I’d like to call him that!) said ‘This world is a stage and we are all an artist’.   I’d rather twist and turn this saying and bring in my personal touch to it that this life is a movie and every shot is high on drama and full of action. Yes at any rate it is relatable with my life’s journey. The amount of mystery thrill and adventure written in this mo...

What you seek, is seeking you….

  Genuinely in this world of great conflict we all are seeking something, whether its love, companionship, time, affection, care, money or respect.   Lao tzu said ‘if you don’t know where you are going, any road will take you there'. It does not matter what we all are seeking, the point to ponder over is the fact that why are we all seeking something? I am a general physician by profession, i meet interact and listen to so many people on daily basis, what's interesting to me is the fact that being in a position where i am suppose to listen to every problem, come up with a solution and help.. on the contrary,  I am in need help most of the time, which is what i believe quite humanly. I can be overly enthusiastic about things at times and some days are generally very numb. Time does not stop for anyone, life is happening all the time, it's just that at times we caught up in so much stress and chaos that it becomes difficult to manage everything. Why do we cage ourselves i...

Self Discovery: is it important?

  Seldom have we found ourselves in the midst of monotony, only if we stop and question our state of mind from time to time! What is it which keeps us going? Is it our goals? Fear of unknown? Or is it our liabilities? In order to survive we do need to pay our bills, however to be able to cater our emotions we must understand the why of our existence. What make us unique from everyone else around us are our individual experiences and our response to those obstacles or opportunities which we face along our journey. Our intellect is the supreme entity but for it to function on an optimal level we must bestow it with a map which will ultimately provide us with various strategies to navigate our lives according to our priorities. From where will we find that map? Through our knowledge, experiences, the people we meet, the kind of principle with which we lead our lives. Life becomes droning, because we have hemmed in ourselves from exploring the plethora of knowledge, dif...

The Art of pretending!

  It’s a silent room; my therapist is sitting opposite to me asking about my wellbeing, usually I am very hyper and expressive, mostly incoherent in my conversations about my thoughts and feelings on various subjects and events with him. However this time I was quite reticent and numb. I was pretty much composed and calm (The opposite of what he has seen so far!). Everything was normal; there was no anxiety or distress. I was not crying or yelling. I am already off medications and I was fine. All this change was due to the understanding which I have developed during the past few years. I learnt the art of acting; Thanks to the short online course on acting which I took last year to help me with the content creation work on my social media page on fitness and health. Yes! I took that course! I am a born actor! I genuinely am. I have always been that kind of a girl who lives in her own imaginary world. I never needed anyone! Everything and everyone I wanted I’d create a...

Fishes are not made to fly (Dealing with identity crisis)

Ever since I started gaining certain perspective of my well being, I always tried to match my conscience with the validation of people around me. I mean I did have an opinion of my own but it only mattered if it got approved by someone else. When I turned 18 I realized that I need to take a charge of myself and own up to my decisions what so ever they may be, and here I am exactly 10 years later mulling over every life decision of mine and questioning my inner conflict and the purpose of my existence. Evidently I am an over-thinker but in my defense I am at that point in my life where I really want to know the reason to live. I am genuinely blessed and grateful. I really am! But I don’t feel happy. I don’t relate to this person whom I am have become, every life encounter which I have had has affected me so immensely that now I feel empty and there is this void within me. I have given all of it which I had in me and now I feel clueless and exhausted. What kind of identity cr...