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My Age is just a numerical evidence of my existence

Its strange how everything change in no time, I almost started my previous career a decade ago (which I have abandoned after analyzing certain facts about my personality), and here I am writing yet another blog in my red checkered night suit with my restless mind.

I feel a remarkable difference in my persona yet everything seems chaotic from the inside and numb from the outside.

The issue was always about looking for some kind of refuge and comfort outside of me which is disappointing every time.

The idea that great things take time, and that one has to be patient to achieve what they actually genuinely want form life is fairly understood by my disorganized mind, yet, I can’t seem to accept it fully.

I don’t run away from calling myself a massive failure at something which I chose for me on the basis of what I thought I’d be able to pull it off for the rest of my life when I was 17, inexperienced and full of dreams and desires!

And I wouldn’t be ashamed to accept that throughout this entire decade whilst experiencing so many moments I still can’t seem to say that I have completely understood what I am actually about,  than, how much I have learnt about this world and its people.

Nevertheless as they say, it’s never too late!

How can someone not know about whom they are and what is their purpose in life and go about looking for different answers outside of them?

It’s truly due to lack of awareness and not having the understanding to accept the reality as it is.

I have seen one of the best people whom I really admire achieving great success after 50 years of age and at the same time I have known people who have become billionaires in their 30s.

It all comes down to the mere fact that what is success for you?

I literally assumed that after becoming a certain kind of specialist in my previous profession I will attain success! However while going through the grind I realized that it’s the process which is the most pivotal, if I am not enjoying what I am doing then I am not successful.

Am I enjoying my life at the age of 27?

*Takes a deep breath*

Phewww

 

It’s the toughest question to ask to oneself. Right!

Enjoyment, happiness and success are all subjective. It all depends upon our thought process at that point of time, if I am clear and completely present at the moment while doing whatever I am doing and not wasting my time on over thinking about scenarios which could have happened or should happen then only I can be enjoying the moment and that for me is truly what being successful is all about.

There is just too much pressure which we have created upon ourselves in this constant comparison catch-22 of our lives, where we are most of the time seeking for some kind of appreciation or attention in any which way.

Why?

As I have intentionally kept myself away from any external attention (the kind, which I want) so I decided to give myself some much needed time and energy.

It is very lethal and it is not recommended for everyone but whoever wants to get to know them and need to deeply understand the purpose of their existence, they must go through this intricate period of isolation or self realization.

 And the earlier it is, the better it’s going to be!

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