Its strange how everything change in no time, I almost started my previous career a decade ago (which I have abandoned after analyzing certain facts about my personality), and here I am writing yet another blog in my red checkered night suit with my restless mind.
I feel a
remarkable difference in my persona yet everything seems chaotic from the
inside and numb from the outside.
The issue was
always about looking for some kind of refuge and comfort outside of me which is
disappointing every time.
The idea
that great things take time, and that one has to be patient to achieve what
they actually genuinely want form life is fairly understood by my disorganized mind,
yet, I can’t seem to accept it fully.
I don’t run
away from calling myself a massive failure at something which I chose for me on
the basis of what I thought I’d be able to pull it off for the rest of my life when
I was 17, inexperienced and full of dreams and desires!
And I wouldn’t
be ashamed to accept that throughout this entire decade whilst experiencing so
many moments I still can’t seem to say that I have completely understood what I
am actually about, than, how much I have
learnt about this world and its people.
Nevertheless
as they say, it’s never too late!
How can someone
not know about whom they are and what is their purpose in life and go about
looking for different answers outside of them?
It’s truly
due to lack of awareness and not having the understanding to accept the reality
as it is.
I have seen
one of the best people whom I really admire achieving great success after 50
years of age and at the same time I have known people who have become
billionaires in their 30s.
It all comes
down to the mere fact that what is success for you?
I literally
assumed that after becoming a certain kind of specialist in my previous
profession I will attain success! However while going through the grind I realized
that it’s the process which is the most pivotal, if I am not enjoying what I am
doing then I am not successful.
Am I enjoying
my life at the age of 27?
*Takes a
deep breath*
Phewww
It’s the toughest
question to ask to oneself. Right!
Enjoyment,
happiness and success are all subjective. It all depends upon our thought
process at that point of time, if I am clear and completely present at the
moment while doing whatever I am doing and not wasting my time on over thinking
about scenarios which could have happened or should happen then only I can be
enjoying the moment and that for me is truly what being successful is all
about.
There is
just too much pressure which we have created upon ourselves in this constant
comparison catch-22 of our lives, where we are most of the time seeking for
some kind of appreciation or attention in any which way.
Why?
As I have
intentionally kept myself away from any external attention (the kind, which I want)
so I decided to give myself some much needed time and energy.
It is very
lethal and it is not recommended for everyone but whoever wants to get to know them
and need to deeply understand the purpose of their existence, they must go
through this intricate period of isolation or self realization.
And the earlier it is, the better it’s going
to be!
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