We don't get to choose what we encounter in our lives

It was 3'o clock in the afternoon I was on my way back from school just when I stepped down from the school bus, and I was almost walking towards my apartment building, where this very giant man with long beard happened to pass right across me while brushing his shoulders completely against my chest. 

And yes, that was my very first experience of eve teasing.

I believe I was in grade 6th or 7th when that had happened. I still remember how badly it affected me mentally, I became numb and mute the entire day,at the time of dinner I finally revealed it to the family as they all noticed this weird change in me throughout the day.

When I shared this incident with the family what I received was half support from them and another emphasis was on my physique, I could see them talking among each other, that she has hit puberty and her body is growing and changing, we need to start covering her properly and provide her with proper inner wear.

By hearing them talk rather than feeling good about it for the support which they showed, I started feeling awkward about my overall appearance.

Well that had really messed me up mentally, and that was perhaps the foundation of this lack of self believe which got indebted in my personality somehow. 

I still remember the other part of me who wanted to knock that man in his groin but that didn’t get activate back then.

yup! that was me in my early teens, gawky, innocent and foolish.

One of the other encounters which I had was about this one boy who was my classmate, he probably had a teenage crush on me, but he used to make a huge deal out of this, everybody in the school knew about it. 

Back then we used to attend the same tuition classes, so once after the session we both came downstairs and he was following me and out of the blue he asked me out, I very affirmatively told him that it’s never going to happen.

He had also approached me through my best friend earlier as well. It was so silly and childish, that now when I am writing about it, I cannot help but get agonized!

I remember him slapping me once during an argument and I was so naive and idiot that I couldn’t do anything about it.

Later on he did apologize for his unfair behavior by reaching out to me on facebook, which I literally appreciated at that time; it was actually a sigh of relief.

My source of commute has always been inconsistent; I have never traveled in one means of transport or with a single person, whether I am travelling for work or for any other reason.

I still remember travelling with my father in not so classy commute in minimum cost during my medical college days; I used to sit right across my father, I don’t really know if he was proud to see me accompanying him or what, I could read his facial expressions, he was uncomfortable seeing me all perplexed carrying a book in my hand, looking depressed rather than all excited, he until his last days while he could speak kept emphasizing me to sit somewhere in silence and analyze my life and myself.

The only reason I am mentioning all of these anecdotes here is because we generally don’t realize that whatever is happening around us has major influence on our entire being.

Or might i couldn't understand anything?

When we were kids we didn’t get to choose our company and our surroundings, our elders decided that for us but as we grow up, we tend to become so auto tuned to our external environment as if this is our life and it is our world only.

They also force us to become really successful and wealthy and that is how most of our minds are conditioned.

But nobody teaches us the importance of finding our true purpose but as we learn and gain experience, we realize that it was technically not their fault as they have lived their entire lives with such absent mindedness!

We go through our share of hardships;we aren’t able to fit in, then eventually in order to survive we come in terms with what we have been taught, what we have seen and heard, and as we really don't know how to make someone understand it, as a result we just become disinterested with our surroundings, and start looking for distractions and those could take various forms, in order to appear normal in front of everyone and accept our lives as this mediocre person who is simply a coward!

On the contrary, we somehow also choose to adopt this rebellious, outlandish and narcissistic personality so that we have the guts to face ourselves when we are all alone and there's no one around who will be judging us.

But none of these acts would take us anywhere except leaving us all alone with our emptiness...  

Coming back to life encounters, we need to understand that it’s now up to us after obtaining such deep insight with age and experience, whether we want to be successful and wealthy or not? because these are actually just few of the tools to survive in this world.

Interactions generally have a variable way to affect our minds, sometimes it can impact us immediately whereas other times we realize it after a very long period.

Some way or the other everything gets ingrained in our subconscious mind and knowing or unknowingly reflects in our core personality, in our decision making skills and ultimately in our overall existence.

I also believe that it’s not entirely upon us to decide who we get to meet in our lives, but we can always choose to continue or discontinue any sort of dialogue or acquaintanceship with anybody whom so ever they maybe!

We must work on ourselves to not let every other thing affect us negatively always.

As a matter of fact, I undoubtedly consider myself to be one crazy encounter for many!