Is it our lives which has become so fickle or is it our frivilously predictable mindsets ?

  Not being able to get whatever you want from life, and surrounding yourself with dark depressing thoughts all the time and most importantly with constant over thinking would lead anyone to a psychiatrist. All of that motivated me enough for sure! It’s funny and not so funny at the same time. The idea of self isolating and not being able to relate with the people and the environment around you is mostly dependent on the choices which you have made in your life. You cannot blame your past or the people around you for your condition. It is entirely your responsibility. I was fed up of myself, my state of mind and of the future. I felt hopeless and miserable to an extent that I had become numb and silent for an entire week. Obviously it was all accompanied by Insomnia, anger spells, panic attacks and cries. According to the popular opinion of my surroundings, it’s all because of me not doing anything and the lack of ambition and purpose in my life. Another opinion...

  It’s not for the first time that I have gotten aware of this dreadful word ‘Loneliness’. It has been a part of me since ages. How? I really don’t know! The only thing which has happened now is that I have accepted it and that is why it has become my best companion I never had! All my life, I kept looking for freedom, love and attention outside of me, because my inner self was too occupied with lack of self worth and lack of confidence. I had in me, this very small part of self worth somewhere, which occasionally used to come out when I performed on stage, especially during my school days. Ironically we are surrounded by so many people in our lives, but we are still unable to express ourselves fully to others, Why is that so? Because honestly, we all somewhat lack the ability to understand ourselves, if someone knows who they are, they just don’t care what others think of them. Isn’t it too much to think about? It is, indeed! Loneliness is increasing in this world, l...

Well, it’s not even bizarre in today’s day and age to have a session with a therapist! Considering how much we talk and how less we are ready to listen. I am not talking about listening to others on the contrary it’s about listening to the voice inside us, which is constantly calling out but we are too busy just living our lives while ignoring ourselves. It’s not even funny how much I ignored myself and now when I have taken some time off from this world and this ‘so called’ normal life, I have genuinely become frustrated with myself which makes me realize what did I do to the people who were a part of my life earlier and what am I doing to my family? But neither they nor I have any other option for now. When I further mull over it I have come to a negotiable conclusion that I have never spent enough time with myself, I never cultivated and invested in my inner conflicts and believes. I had become the biggest hypocrite you can meet. Nevertheless I am trying to spend some time wit...

It was 3'o clock in the afternoon I was on my way back from school just when I stepped down from the school bus, and I was almost walking towards my apartment building, where this very giant man with long beard happened to pass right across me while brushing his shoulders completely against my chest.  And yes, that was my very first experience of eve teasing. I believe I was in grade 6th or 7th when that had happened. I still remember how badly it affected me mentally, I became numb and mute the entire day,at the time of dinner I finally revealed it to the family as they all noticed this weird change in me throughout the day. When I shared this incident with the family what I received was half support from them and another emphasis was on my physique, I could see them talking among each other, that she has hit puberty and her body is growing and changing, we need to start covering her properly and provide her with proper inner wear. By hearing them talk rather than feeling good abo...